if you were born before the summer solstice (june 21st in the northern hemisphere), the sun lingered in the sky a little longer for days after you were born; if you were born after, the stars stayed to watch you longer every night for days
don’t you ever say you’re not worth anything. you have moved the cosmos
i keep thinking about what would happen if i got pregnant and had like twins or s/t because it’s pretty likely that i will like i’d want to get an abortion but ahh 2 potential human beings. idk if i could
its a wonder i passed english because grammar is not my strong point at all and dont look at me dont freakin look at me i dotn even know what a verb is. like im terrible at remembering that stuff. but i rock at spelling and creative writing and can apparently bullshit my way through anything. any good marks i received or merit endorsements in english were for creative writing and poetry
i’m getting really emotional over small things and it makes me feel really hostile and upset at anyone and it makes it harder to go out like i cant go anywhere by myself. i cant walk my dog. im so pathetic
shhh no i said i couldn’t be bothered finishing to explain myself so i didn’t really mean that i was gonna come back and edit it later to explain it
can u reblog and explain im curious
ok the first part was true i’ll judge you on what you study but i’m pretty sure everyone does that anyway i meant like if you’re going to sit around doing nothing because you want the world to come to you that’s dumb and like vocational training/polytechs/internships/whatever are all good as long as you’re doing something that you actually want to not because you’re messing around because you don’t want to deal with the real world which you’d have to because you fucked up opportunities you had in the past
idk i don’t like it when people aren’t doing anything to better themselves because they think university isn’t for everyone (and obvs it isn’t) but then they use that as an excuse to do nothing
maybe some people do judge others on what they study but I honestly don’t? it’s a pretty shitty thing to do even if you keep it to yourself
based on the first sentence in your initial post you’re saying you won’t give someone who doesn’t go to uni the time of day and adding on what you say here, that you think anyone who doesn’t go to uni is “sitting around” and “waiting for the world to come to them”
I don’t know where you get off thinking you can have an opinion on what other people do and don’t study, like that’s their choice and it has 100% absolutely nothing to do you with you. you don’t know about other people’s circumstances either. not everyone has a) the money, b) the support or c) the right frame of mind to continue school after high school.
and I take “you don’t want to deal with the real world which you’d have to because you fucked up opportunities you had in the past” as a personal insult whether it was meant or not. I remember a little conversation we had on a previous private blog of mine where you attacked me for dropping out of uni and asked me what I thought I was doing when what I was doing was recovering from depression and looking for a job. get a fucking clue, caitlin. university is not the only “real world.” I have plans for what I’m going to do with my life and even if I didn’t, it wouldn’t be your place to judge me on that. I know people exactly like you who either see uni as the be all end all of the three to four years after high school, or who, on the other end of the spectrum, see people who pay exorbitant amounts of money for a degree that might not get them anywhere as stupid. it’s really sad, honestly, how dense some people are. the REAL WORLD is whatever you choose to do, no matter what it is. the REAL WORLD only ends for you when you DIE.
"idk i don’t like it when people aren’t doing anything to better themselves because they think university isn’t for everyone (and obvs it isn’t) but then they use that as an excuse to do nothing"
1) none of your business
2) none of your business
3) none of your fucking business
I don’t care if you want to unfollow me now and I’d probably prefer it if you did. I’ll gladly return the favour.
rosie summed everything up really well but i wanted to add that that was really insulting?
i dropped out of school to take care of myself and that doesn’t mean that you get to look down on me which you obviously do considering what you just wrote
i don’t think you have the right to tell anyone that they don’t want to deal with the real world considering you’re a very privileged girl with a wealthy family
couldn;t help myself and read my ex best friends blog and she said she feels more like herself and hasnt for a long time and feels really good too
and it hurts a tiny bit but
i’m actually pretty good too like i used to feel really horrible for feeling so indifferent to everyone and then my therapist told me neutrality was important or all of our feelings for people would be too much if we had them all the time except i just stopped being friends with the person i used to call my soul mate and i don’t really care
"I love you to bits and pieces," I say. We’re standing on the fire escape outside the apartment. It recently rained, the smell is in the air, we’re avoiding the puddle that collected on the floor nearby.
"I love you to sheeps and fleeces," she responds.
"I love you to folds and creases."
"I love you to rents and leases."
"I love you," I say. It’s impossible to tell when. I say it every day. It’s outside of time.
i dropped off a little bag with stickers, a cute heart soap, a mini bottle of amethyst gems, “apology brownies” and a school booklet she needed back and she just texted me saying “sorry i was asleep thanks for the classics booklet” and nothing else and i asked her if we were going to talk about anything and she hasn’t replied and depending on what she replies i might need to call psych services because i kind of really want to kill myself right now